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It's absolutely amazing to see just how much life can change in the space of a month. Just one month, and everything has changed,and for the first time it's not a bad thing. It's beautiful, amazing, full of hope...perfect. Never in my life have I been able to use that word to describe my life, and I suppose it truly doesn't fit into certain parts of my life. I feel like the whole world is falling apart around me, but I'm walking through it with a smile on my face, and my hand intertwined with his.
That's not even where it started! I removed myself from a life that was only tearing me down and bringing me further into a darkness I wasn't ready to endure. I'm living with one of my best friends now, and each day I'm encased in love, and hugs. I'm swimming in a world of optimism, and ready to take anything people throw at me. It's truly amazing to be where I am. To have people come up to me that I didn't even know acknowledged my existence, just to tell me they love to see how happy I am now. Happy to see a smile on my face. My friends who live 1,200 miles away from me to look at pictures on Facebook and tell me they have never seen me smile the way I do now.
I owe it to the family I'm now apart of, and I especially owe it to him. My dear boyfriend who has enveloped me with a light I didn't even know was possible to live in. A joy that overcomes my heart. I'm so lucky to have him, to wake up each morning with a reason to smile. A reason to believe in myself, and look in the mirror and see just a little of the beauty and uniqueness he see's in me everyday. I'm lucky I have someone who I can honestly and truly be myself around, and not fear the judgement that would surly come from others.
In the space of a month I've inherited everything I never though I would ever deserve or acquire, and for the very first time my heart in enveloped with a love and joy that has my heart starting to believe in the impossible possibility of Happily Ever After.
That's not even where it started! I removed myself from a life that was only tearing me down and bringing me further into a darkness I wasn't ready to endure. I'm living with one of my best friends now, and each day I'm encased in love, and hugs. I'm swimming in a world of optimism, and ready to take anything people throw at me. It's truly amazing to be where I am. To have people come up to me that I didn't even know acknowledged my existence, just to tell me they love to see how happy I am now. Happy to see a smile on my face. My friends who live 1,200 miles away from me to look at pictures on Facebook and tell me they have never seen me smile the way I do now.
I owe it to the family I'm now apart of, and I especially owe it to him. My dear boyfriend who has enveloped me with a light I didn't even know was possible to live in. A joy that overcomes my heart. I'm so lucky to have him, to wake up each morning with a reason to smile. A reason to believe in myself, and look in the mirror and see just a little of the beauty and uniqueness he see's in me everyday. I'm lucky I have someone who I can honestly and truly be myself around, and not fear the judgement that would surly come from others.
In the space of a month I've inherited everything I never though I would ever deserve or acquire, and for the very first time my heart in enveloped with a love and joy that has my heart starting to believe in the impossible possibility of Happily Ever After.
Yes, Life Is Hard...But It Can Be Okay...
Life is hard. People have told me this my entire life....but, I can't help but wonder if they truly understand what that means. If they truly understand the hardships that life can bring to them. Do they understand how it feels to sit in the darkness and not want to leave because the uncertainty the outside worlds holds is to much to bare. Do they know what it's like to be surrounded by memories that shoot an arrow straight to your heart? The past life I lived left me terrified of so much, and i still suffer even though the worst of it was years ago, and I'm sure that some of it I will continue to struggle with my entire life. It's a given. T
Beauty and the Beast...??
The other day I went to go see Beauty and the Beast 3D. This has always been my all time favorite Disney movie. You see, I've always felt somewhat of a connection to Belle. She's a young woman who knows that she is different from everyone else, and has such a taste for adventure. The rest of the world doesn't understand her, some judge her and mark her out as weird and peculiar . Others think that her individuality just adds to her beauty and personality. Still, no one quite understands her...
This is exactly how I've felt my entire life. I know that I'm different from everyone else because of what I've had to overcome and deal with my entir
A Dream Finally Come True
So a few weeks ago I sent in a bunch of my poems and prose to a publishing company, and got the letter yesterday informing me that they want to publish it all in my own book!! I just had to share with you guys! This has been my biggest dream ever since I was a little girl!! Thank you so much to everyone who encouraged me and to all those who believed in me when I didn't have the strength to believe in myself!!! My dream is finally coming true!
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It hurts so bad, that no matter how hard I try to be happy, and no matter how many things I do to try to bring joy to my life...it's always short lived. I can't seem to fill these holes that won't heal.
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