Life is hard. People have told me this my entire life....but, I can't help but wonder if they truly understand what that means. If they truly understand the hardships that life can bring to them. Do they understand how it feels to sit in the darkness and not want to leave because the uncertainty the outside worlds holds is to much to bare. Do they know what it's like to be surrounded by memories that shoot an arrow straight to your heart? The past life I lived left me terrified of so much, and i still suffer even though the worst of it was years ago, and I'm sure that some of it I will continue to struggle with my entire life. It's a given. The acceptance of this leaves me at a cross road. I could choose to let these things take over my life, I can choose to stay in bed everyday and cry, not allowing the wounds and scars that remain time to heal. I could allow them to still bleed with the past memories and pain that remains always taunting me, and telling me that I'm not good enough....
OR...I can take a stand. I can hold my head high and break these chains that have held me down for far to long. I can leave behind the ones who held me down with them. I can take the path not taken, as they say. This path is not untrod upon...but still filled with the presence of those like me who decided to make the journey to success. I choose to allow the courage inside me burn from the embers and flare high, grabbing hold of those in need.
Ever since I can remember I've had a dream in my heart to reach out to those who are less fortunate then me. I live off of helping other people with the problems and burdens that they carry. It brings so much joy to my heart to see problems resolved with my help. It's proof that even in this crazy world, love, happiness and joy are always possible. Even when it seems impossible...